Living With Uncertainty

A Little Chaos

It has been another week of outright uncertainty. We can’t even say we elected a new president because half the country has decided they don’t agree. There are some that have the resources to pretend that everything is normal around them but it is not. We all know it. I realise life in the best of times is full of ambiguity and shape-shifting, but 2020 has been its own beast. Everyone is craving some sort of normalcy to their lives. I guess, if nothing else, 2020 has made me try to come to terms with the daily apprehension. Of course, in full disclosure, some days I do much better than others. Haha. 

We need to build new normals for ourselves. In a country rife with division, finding our new place in the world will most definitely take some time. Just finding a piece of stable ground in which to plant my feet each morning has become a chore. I really can’t envision much past what I may want today to look like. And even that, I have to be open to it changing. 

Time in the studio is even more critical for me amidst all this uncertainty. I need time to make, to reflect, and to organise my thoughts or my day descends into chaos. The work I am doing right now in the studio feels rambling and haphazard but also imbued with the purpose of sanity, compassion, connectedness. 

In Gyorgy Doczi’s book The Power of Limits, he talks about how our physical proportions are interconnected with nature. Essentially the Golden Mean or proportional harmony. I believe this is why we feel so good when we have one of those oneness with nature moments because indeed it is a “oneness” with nature. For a moment we feel part of the world and everything in it. We feel a unity and an empathy for all natural beings. The world definitely needs more of this, so get yourselves out there. Breathe. Give in. 

We all have to start somewhere.