Musings

Sketch pencil and pen 7”x5” 2021

Musings on life. An ongoing discussion.

Number 1. Never expect things to turn out as you imagined. I mean. It’s awesome to dream, but it’s dangerous territory. It’s best to stay as resilient as possible. Keep your hopes high and your expectations low as my dear friend always told me. And if 2020 taught us nothing else, don’t ever take anything for granted.

Number 2. Why is the “stuff" of life so incredibly difficult? It seems the more inner work I do the further away my peaceful life gets. Once again. Expectations. Ugh. And then there are still dishes, laundry, etc. etc. Life just follows you around. Wherever you go, there you are.

Number 3. Love. So complicated and messy and painfully needed in our lives. I am really coming to a place where this idea of sharing the rest of my life with one person seems ludicrous. It’s not that I am giving up on love. I am just rearranging it in my life.

Number 4. Finding purpose to our lives is so important and seems like it should just be a given for any caring loving person. Yet it is probably one of the most exhausting demands on our time and energy. The work culture of capitalism has skewed the idea of purpose for so many of us. I am living my 60th year and am still trying to disentangle making a living and living a life.

Number 5. Art. Making art. Making money making art. I’ll just leave that one there. 

I have not been in the studio this past week. I am wallowing in love. I am helping build confidence and clarity in a muddy abstruse situation. And I am doing what I can to remain focused on my purpose and work. There are certainly times when the struggle is about simply retaining lucidity. I have sketching, writing and coffee to aid in this task.